“Spaces” – Album Lyrics
© 2007 Michael Tiernan

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Don’t Wake Up

Don't Wake up, don't wake up
Because the sun is shining
On your face and its making you glow
And I’m here peeking
So Don’t wake up.

Are you dreaming? Are you dreaming?
Because your eyes are fluttering -
Are you dreaming of me, cause I’m still here peeking.
So Don’t Wake Up.

Chorus:
Because you shine for me, and you don't even notice
that you
shine for me.  
This morning I'm just peeking.

Solo

There you’re waking.  Darlin’ are you waking?
And you’re smiling at me
And your face is still casting that glow
And I’m still here peeking.
So Don’t Wake Up

Chorus

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“Same Sky”

There’s only so much sunshine left in the day
I want to bottle it up and send it your way
So you could see what I’m seeing.
‘Cause I spent half of the morning caught in a daze
Trying to burn away the mist and haze
of this empty feeling.

All the leaves are turning this time of year,
The only thing that’s missing is for you to be here
To see what I’m seeing.
‘Cause it’s a guilty, guilty feeling to be taken by
All this beauty when you’re not by my side.
Do you know what I’m feeling?
I’ll send it into the blue, into the blue.

CHORUS:
Because there’s all this space and time
Between us tonight.
But I know that somewhere
You’re looking up at the Same Sky.
You’re looking up at the Same Sky.

You were on the beach, I was on the mountain
You were looking at the stars, we were drinking from
the same fountain
Pouring out of this same night.
But the need to be alone is like medicine
So I can fill you up when I get home again,
Do you know what I’m thinking?
I’ll send it into this blue, I’ll send it into the blue.

Solo
Chorus

There’s only so much sunshine left in the day
I want to bottle it up and send it your way
So you can see what I’m seeing.

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“Better Life”

I’m hopping a train to Chula Vista
The first chance I get.
I’m heading south of the border
So I can forget.
I’ll buy a piece of land with what I’ve earned,
Plant me some fields of green,
Stare out over the Pacific
And try not to dream again,
Dream of a Better Life

O, dream of a Better Life/

I kissed you behind the register
After everyone had gone home
So they wouldn’t have to see the brown boy
Stealing one of their own.
Then every night out there out on the beach
Between the tracks and your home -
That place where two worlds could collide
And no one would know that we
Were dreaming of a better life.

O, dream of a better life.

Until your brother found the note
Left for you and you alone.
It spoke of your face
And how it filled my dreams with gold.
That night he waited outside in the shadows
And he lunged at me as I passed
And when it was all over
He lie dying on the tracks.
I dropped my dreams with that knife.

O, these dreams cut like that knife.

Bridge:
So I’ll remember you as the sun goes down
Over the ocean blue.
And I’ll see your face in everything that grows
In this field I’m planting for you
With dreams of a better life.

O, dream of a better life.


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“I’m Ready”

That which made all this
Come give me a kiss
That which shoots these stars
Show me who you are

That which paints this sky
Fill me with your night
Empty desert bliss
Come give me a kiss

Chorus:
I’m ready, I’m ready

Mountain, rock, and bone
Pull blood from this stone
Come and fill me up
Water for my cup

Ancient desert Call
Please empty me of all
I cast into this night
A different sort of light

Chorus:
And I’m Ready, I’m ready

     Bridge:
Ready to shut up and listen
     Ready to take what I’m given        
     Ready to open my hands
     Ready to let go of my plans

I will wait for you
No matter what I lose
No matter what I miss
Just come give me a kiss

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“So Cruel”

Have you ever had someone you love, ever made them
cry?
With just one angry word that came from deep inside.
Like lightning that’s flashing, even leaves you
surprised .
But the damage has been done, see the tears in her
eyes.
And you wish you could just, Take it back, just take it
back
Take it back -  put the words back in your mouth.
Put em back where they came from
Take it back just take it back,
Didn’t mean to say them anyhow

Chorus:
So why you gotta be so cruel?        
Made me cry, lying next to you

So you get down on your knees and beg, Mama take
me back
But she pushes down the anger, for the next attack.
Yeah forgive and forget sure is a nice ideal
But when you hurt someone that you love, honey let’s
get real.
We’re like two different countries with bad politicians
Keeping the peace by storing ammunitions – save ‘em
up for the next time
And when you push me into a corner, I will pull them
out and shoot you down
So why don’t you tell me

Chorus
Solo

Baby if love’s supposed to set us free
Why are we always arguing?
We push and we shove with our own ego’s
What is love if we can’t let these go?!
So why don’t you tell me……..

Chorus

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“Distractions”

Distractions, Distractions

I take you out to dinner, gonna take my baby out for a
drink
But the minute that we sit down my damn cell phone
begins to ring
This’ll only take a second – I’ve been waiting on this call

So just sit tight, we got all night, and order yourself a
tall.

Distractions, distractions

So I finish up w/ my phone call, cause the dude on the
other line
Got beeped in with call waiting – gonna finish up this
call next time
So I turn to ask you how you’re day went, but now you’re
staring at the tube
Gotta catch that Holywood minute, get all the latest
celeb news.

Distractions, distractions

So just hang on, I gotta check my email
I gotta go check them bills
But the only thing in my inbox - a bunch of adds for
male enhancement pills
So I surf on over to check the whether, gotta find out if it’
s gonna rain
But a pop-up from a girl named Heather says she’s
cold and lonely out in the Ukraine
- should I click??

     Babe, you know I’ll always be there
     I promised that to you
     So just call me if you need me
     But now there’s something that I gotta do.


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“I Was Wrong”

There aint no use in talking about religion
Or reasons for the fall.
Sometimes there’s no explanation,
No side to be on.

There aint no devil sitting on my shoulder
Whispering evil things.
Aint no passions to give blame to –
It’s just one of those things

Chorus:
I was wrong.  I was wrong.
In fact I knew it all along – I was wrong.

Solo

There aint one single reason why I hurt you
I’m as weak as they come.
No more blindness, no excuses.
I am left with none.

Chorus

O but now my baby’s gone – cause I was wrong.

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“Spaces”

I am not all yours, you are not all mine
We are not each others all the time
There’s space that lies between, Your heart and mine
Space that must lie free, space that cannot die
But we try to fit in spaces where we’re not meant to fit
Frustration on our faces and I can’t get in

Chorus:        
Well it hurts to know that I can’t go where you’re leading
     And the pain it shows but I can’t tell where you’re
bleeding
I’ve tried my best to understand
I try to fill the spaces the best I can

We’ve got all these holes in our hearts
From when people could not love us for who we are
Holes that leak the confidence, holes that leak the love
We pour into each other trying to fill up
And I go pouring in, but it keeps running out
I am empty now, I can’t get in

     Chorus

So what is it we have, but a word?
Spoken in a promise that everyone heard
A word I’ll say again and again despite this holey heart
And offer arms to hold you through the lonely part

     Chorus

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“You Hide”

I feel your presence everywhere.
It jumps out at me when I'm aware.
You're beauty is so manifold
everywhere I go.

It's been said before, it'll be said again
through different throats and languages.
Throught the heroes and the saviors bold
the same thing is known

Chorus:
That you're as near
As this heart is here.
Just behind the differences
You hide.

And in the fire on the mountaintops,
In the sacrifice to all the gods.
Even in the poison in the junkies veins,
that need cries out  your name.

But we can't afford to disagree
cause we're all talking about the same damn things.
Words are fingers pointing at the moon,
Notes mistaken for the tune.

Chorus

Bridge:
In the hero, savior, and the sage
they denied the world so they could embrace it
Then loving from that empty space
where truth could come reside.

Some might ask why you're so damn hard to find.
We can get all angry that our hearts are blind.
But if the truth was found so easily
would we not cast it aside?

Chorus


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“Changing All the Time”

Yesterday you’re a junkie
Tomorrow you’re a saint
I’m just trying to keep track of all the people you aint
And all of this changing is keeping you the same

In College it was Jesus
Your 20’s it was Buddha
Seemed like any prophet who rolled through town
could flash his magic and fool ya
And all of this changing is just keeping you the same

     But change is good, and change is fine        
     But I can’t love you girl if you keep changing,
changing all the time

If Every day’s a mission from some unseen call
The more you’re chasing after yourself
I more I can’t recognize you at all
And all of your changing has keeping you the same

If you seek to find yourself in some distant land
If meaning is found under some rock you must hold in
y our hand
Then all of this changing has been pushing me away

     And yes change is good and change is fine
     But I can’t love you girl if you keep changing,
changing all the time

     And you say, ‘climb every mountain.  
     And cross every sea, till you find your dream’
     But darlin’ every mountain, every ocean blue
     Hides already deep inside of your

And yes change is good.
And change is fine
But I can’t love you girl
Cuz you keep changing
You’re changing all the time


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“Love & Commitment”                                
Well I drove up to LA in first and second gear.
It’s hard to navigate the sea of red lights here
And I ask why, why, why do I do it?

Cause I’ve never had a dream or seen a vision clear.
This life that I lead just seemed to grow from inside
here
And I try, try, try - I try just to prove it.

Chorus:
But when you love something
This simple life can take wing
And fly beyond the petty things
If you sign away your life on the dotted line somewhere
between
Love and commitment

50 bucks in gas to play a gig for free
Someone in the back yell’s “Play Freebird for me!!”
With my heart on the line,
Whatever, buddy!

Yeah ‘cause there’s just one thing in life I’ve learned
before I commit
To know one day these dreams will seem the opposite
Of when I signed, signed, signed up for them.

Chorus        
Cause when you love something
This simple life can take wing
And rise above the petty things
If you sign away your life on the dotted line somewhere
between
Love & Commitment

Solo

Still I drive up to L.A. in first and second gear
The Santa Ana winds now blow the city clear
Yeah, I know why, why, why – I know why I do it.


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“Sleeeeeeeping….”
By Billy Jonas

When I was young I did not know what people meant
when
they said so and so was 'sleeping together' Because
when mom and dad were fast asleep I'd tiptoe in and
gently creep between,
we'd be 'sleeping together'  I only knew between
the two, my dreams were better;
and all my fears disappeared -- sleeping together

When we'd been dating for a week I finally kissed you
on the cheek and said we should try sleeping together
You said "that sounds premature," I did my best to
reassure "I really mean just 'sleeping' together"
You said "no tricks and don't be slick," you slept
in your jeans and your sweater • In our cocoon we lay
like spoons -- sleeping together

Hush -- be still; feel the beating of my heart - Hush -- be
still; this is where the music starts

Sleeping together
Sleeping together

Someday when we're old and gray, if looks and lust
have passed I pray we're sleeping together
Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the Love will
keep us sleeping together
Our bodies lay like notes sustained -- we're music
together
The warmest chord I've ever heard -- sleeping together

Sleeping together
Sleeping together
Sleeping together

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“The Fruit Song” (Hidden Track)

When I was a boy, down at my grandma’s house,
Perched on a hill above the sea.
I’d stare up at the sky at the citrus trees
Like a nectar-loving bumble bee.
Well most of the time, that fruit lay beyond my reach
Til one day when a branch drooped down too low.
And as I reached up, ready to pluck
My grandma came up behind me

Chorus:
She said “don’t pluck the fruit too soon, boy.
     You’re gonna get a mouth full of sour.
     Don’t pluck the fruit too soon boy
     Wait until the picking hour.”

Flash forward a few years to a boy of 17,
When I landed the girl of my dreams
My cassanova ways I did employ, mixed in with a little J.
D.
Well after 6 months of just some kissy-kiss
I was ready for a little more action.
So that night in my truck, with the windows steamed up
My grandma’s voice come back to haunt me.

     Chorus

     Solo

So now I spend my time trying to analyze
When the fruit is good and ready.
And I find that with a little patience and peace of mind
Keeps me on a track that’s straight and steady.
Yeah, but a plum’s still a plum
And  my patience grows numb
And I hear my grandma’s voice from the grave, she said

Chorus
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©2005 Michael Tiernan

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“Swim”

This is the showdown, there’s no better time.
Will you run away or stay and fight?
I’ve been to the desert, I’ve been to the sea,
I’ve received the gifts they’ve given to me.
I’ve lost some illusions – I’ll probably lose more
And if there’s anything left, it’s on the other shore

     Chorus:
So can I dive into the water?
Slap this wicked face of fate
Don’t know if it’s a burning river
Or just another icy lake
It’s the tension of this moment,
It’s the things that we must lose,
These clothes stuck to my body,
Strip down and choose – to swim.

This moment is terror – this moment is fake
This moment has already been washed away.
My life is not future, my life is not past
My life is before words even break the glass.
And so I’m in silence, and so I’m in love
I’m looking at nothing – can I take the plunge?

Chorus:
Can I dive into the water
Drink the passion love creates?
Don’t know if it’s a burning river
Or just another icy lake.
It’s the tension of this moment
It’s the things that we must lose
These clothes stuck to my body
I’ll strip down and choose – to swim

     Well this silence is the answer
     The fear has been submerged
     Life in the center flowing
     Will the true self please emerge?
     This water ever burns me
     This water ever heals.
     What holds this flow together
     But love that is the real?
     Teach me to swim.   Swim.

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“Slow Down”

Too much running with blind eyes
Fickle rat race, fickle prize
Too much grasping at fake things
Empty hands and hurt feelings
Too much action not enough
Of that silent stare of love

Too much looking far ahead
What if this in case of that?
Placing Hope in the next step
But tripping on the one I’m in
Not enough of asking questions
Skipping only to the answers

So Slow down.  The earth will turn without your
willing it.
Slow down. And the fire burns without your
touching it.
Slow down. Calm this restless heart of mine.

Too much thinking, too much time
To get our hopes hung from these lines
So too much weight hangs from our
Before the journey’s even complete.
There’s too much aching, a silent shout
Cut the lines, let them fall down

     Chorus

Bridge:
And there’s one thing, one thing that I missed
Cause there’s too much to do on my list
I need three, three, three other me’s
And what for, what for, I can’t see the reason
For the five things that I forgot to do, and that was
Slow Down (chorus)

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“Child On Your Floor”

I can taste the warning signs
Of all the things that make us blind to
The truth that dwells inside
And I can taste the consequence
That threatens us with permanence
This dry place in our souls.
But I can’t treat this stain, this sin
With anything or place I’ve been, I know
It’s just part of me

But I’m reaching in, are you listening?  Your hands
are cold, can’t you feel?        
Why aren’t you talking to me?  Don’t you care
anymore?
I am this child on your floor  
Sweeping up all this mess
     I do not want this…
So I sing: Do do do do do do do dooooo
     I’m empty.
     Do do do do do do do do do
     I’m empty, til you come inside.

I can feel the warmth of this breath
That keeps me from spiritual death I know
It’s inside of me
But I can still see the warning track
That flips me off my feet, I’m on my back again
Staring at the sky
And you’ll see me on my knees
Begging cheaply to receive
Something, anything, nothing

But I’m reaching in, are you listening?  My hands
are cold can’t you feel
Why aren’t you talking to me? Don’t you care
anymore
I am a child on your floor. I’m sweeping up all this
mess
But I do not want this
So I’ll sing:
(Chorus)

     Bridge:
And its who I am that makes me want you
And its what I lack that makes me need you
I don’t give a damn if I can’t feel you
Cause I love you

Til you come inside.

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“Song I Can’t Remember”

I wrote a song today
That I can’t remember
It spoke of skies so gray
And how to navigate this weather this winter

And I swear it held a key to life
In this human situation
And it made sense in my mind
And for a blessed moment everything went golden

(Chorus)
And it went…Da-iiii

But it had words with it
That dealt with all these questions
Like how could God permit
All of this pain if He’s so good?

But yet I saw how this could be
As I sang there in the sunshine
And I sang of beauty
Despite the cloudiness of living this life

Chorus

Bridge:
I felt like the Buddha, I felt like the Christ
Who underneath their trees
Sucked the sap from this life
And they learned how to just be
Help me learn just how to be.

I wrote a song today
That I can’t recover
And as I sang away
All this was discovered in my own heart

Maybe it was meant for me
And so you’ll have to trust me
That there exists a key
To all of this pain that you’re going through

So just sing with me…


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Born Again Contradiction

Could you climb back into the womb?
Warm protection from the gloom
Sometimes I want to try
When this world makes me cry
But I’m just acting like a baby, hey.

Could you cut the tie that binds?
Hanging off me all the time
Sometimes I wanta try
Cause you got me dangling over fire
But I’m just acting like a baby, wa wa!.

O I’m a born again contradiction
Just trying to escape my condition
But you can’t reinvent yourself
Anymore than you can reinvent the wheel
I am born again, I’m a born again contradiction.

Could you learn to walk again?
Two steps forward, without looking back to where I’
ve been.
Not looking ahead or all around
But feeling my feet planted firmly on this solid
ground
And not focused on the maybe, hey.

O I’m a born again contradiction
Just trying to explain my condition
But you can’t reinvent yourself
Anymore than you can reinvent the wheel
I am born again, I’m a born again contradiction
I am born again, I’m a born again contradiction.


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“Don’t’ Hold On”

I got an X across my heart
I got a cross around my neck
I have been there from the start
And I’ve started to see

I’ve got a sea welled up in my chest
A treasure chest once filled with gold
The golden calf you thought was blessed
Now starting to bleed

One thing that changes to another
Who I thought my enemy now is my brother
What I thought was God, well I soon discovered
Was a demon seed, planted down inside of me
So don’t hold on to anything

I plucked a flower from this earth
The earth that promises my life
The life fell right from that stem
Once plucked it dies

And I felt the wind upon my face
And I tried to put it in a box
Now I’m all boxed up in this space
With no room to breath

     Chorus


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“This One, Not That One” (Toothpaste Song!!)

Walking through the grocery store, searching for a
tube of toothpaste
I finally find the aisle that’ll clean my coffee smile
but I’ll have to stay awhile, cause of all the choices I
face
(there’s more choices than I have teeth….)
And I ask myself:

Which one will I choose?
Cause they all say 3 out of 4 dentists recommend I
use This one, not that one.  This one, not that one.

Now I got my teeth clean, I’m sucked in like a
tractor beam
To check out all the magazines that promise me
what I need to be happy.
I’m looking at all the choices there, trying hard not
to stare
At all the pretty women there smiling at me with
their perfect clean teeth
And I ask myself…        
     
Which one, would I choose
Cause they’re all just sitting out like objects
For some monkey like me to use – will it be
This one, not that one.  The skinny one, not the fat
one….

When I think of all the time we waste deciding on
which taste to taste
But never really tasting what’s already in our
mouths to savor
Sometimes I wish I was a socialist, I’d throw away
my grocery list
Then at least I’d waste my time standing in a line
with my neighbor.

Enjoying the breeze, never knowing what they’ll
give me
But still saying please, and thank you for
This one and that one.  This one and that one.




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“Plasticity”

When everything is financed
and nothing is bought
From your fashion to your furniture
and pretty soon your caught up
In some sort of web
Of finance and fear
And your personal identity
Goes only as deep as your pockets are near.

When the person you are
Depends on your power
To buy that sleek car
And one-up the neighbor
How foolish we are
To think that we could trade
This priceless identity
For a name stamped on a card.

And I’m tired of plastic things
Taking the place of gold rings
When the world moves at light speed
And I can’t keep up with the plasticity of being.

In this culture of plastic
That we assume is best
From the music that we listen to
To those things on your chest
What are we hiding
Trying to conceal
But the pain and the passion
And the beauty of the real in its coffin now

And I’m tired of plastic things
Filling the cracks in broken dreams
And the world is busting out at the seems
The world was so brave until it gave into plasticity

When will we get tired of plastic things
Making us less than human beings
As I write this eulogy
And I can’t keep up with the plasticity of being.


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“Pass On By”

Why O wind, did you pass me by?
Caught my attention then away you fly.
Calm before, now calm again
Were you whispering to the soul of a friend, you

Did the weather maker send you to blow
Something out of the way
For a wanderer, o like me
To keep me from stumbling, you

     Pass on by, pass on by
     Will you come again, you
     Pass on by, pass on by
     On you I depend.

You come through the window
And not through the door
Late at night – reminds me what life is for
You speak in ways I can’t understand
Too great for me this mysterious hand, you

     Chorus

Bridge:
Blow on through, blow on through, blow on
through, blow on through yeah. Blow on through,
blow on the through, blow on through to the depths
of you.
Pass me by, pass me by, pass me by in the depths
of my mind.  Blow on through, blow on through O.


On you I depend.

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“The Day I Tried to Live”
By Chris Cornell, Arr. By Michael Tiernan

I woke the same as any other day
Except a voice was in my head
It said seize the day, pull the trigger
Drop the blade, and watch the rolling heads

The day I tried to live
I stole a thousand beggar's change
And gave it to the rich

The day I tried to win
I dangled from the power lines
And let the martyrs stretch
Singing

One more time around might do it
One more time around might make it
One more time around might do it
One more time around
The day I tried to live

Words you say never seem
To live up to the ones inside your head
The lives we make never seem
To ever get us anywhere but dead

The day I tried to live
I wallowed in the blood and mud with
All the other pigs

I woke the same as any other day you know
I should have stayed in bed

The day I tried to win
I wallowed in the blood and mud with
All the other pigs

And I learned that I was a liar
Just like you


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“Jumping In”

I am lost in this scene
I am one with with the world emptied of its green
It’s like my pockets being emptied
Yet letting it go
I’ve learned from these leaves
Because they know, that

     There is solace in their falling
     On their journey to the ground
     I have heard the autumn calling,
Follow me in falling down
So I’m Jumping in.

Now I am tossed in this wind
I remember the seasons attached to the stem
But the springtime has fed me,
Til my heart’s full
Now I see where it’s lead me
I choose to fall

     There is solace in the falling
     On my journey to my ground
     I have heard the autumn calling
     Follow me in falling down, So I’m
     Jumping In

     Post Chorus:
     You know what autumn brings
     Dying and falling things
     Ending up in the ground
     Getting there by falling down
     Winter brings its bitter chill
     Our death grows deeper still
     Waiting there to hear the voice
     The sun will come, we’ve made our choice
     Spring comes and we push on through
     This earth makes all things new
     Suddenly we rise again
     Green will fill our empty skin
     Summer gives us space to be
     As full as we can be
     Suddenly it’s time again
     Jumping In…
     

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“Other Side of the World”

Could our love ever die?
Could the sun burn it’s path across the sky?
And descend under the horizon
Deeper and deeper
To the other side of the world.

Could these tears magnify
The world unseen behind those eyes?
And transcend my own limitations,
Able to perceive her on the other side of her world

     The other side of the world
     Is a heart
     That finds its own way in the dark
     Thanks fights its way through fear
     Of the risk
     That loving someone through all of this
     Is possible, desirable

Could our vision ever go blind
Waiting for our sun to arise?
Will you walk out on the horizon
Willing to meet me
On the other side of the world?

             
“Still Listening” Album Lyrics
©2003 Michael Tiernan

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The Other Side

Where do we go from here?  I want to run away and
hide.
Escape is never near enough, When they’re closing
in on every side
I’m stuck between the land and the sea

But who’s is the voice I hear, saying, “Let’s go to the
other side”?
“Abandoning all your fear why don’t you just jump
inside?
And finally get this boat out to sea.”

     That sense of solidness
     Now sloshing underneath my feet
     And just some drifting wood
     Protecting me from the deep
     Now that my anchor’s up
     I can finally taste the free
     And the salt and the wind
     Now they begin
     To cleanse me

Now it all seems so clear, The rhythm of the tide
The heat of the sun burns near, that burns away all
that I hide
How much sweeter could life possibly be?
What on this earth could shake me?

     That sense of fluidness
     Now solid underneath my feet
     And just a little faith
     That plunged me into the deep
     But where is my anchor now?
     I want to stay still and sleep
     And salt and the wind,
     Now they begin
     To sting…..

     And the waves are crashing over the edge
     I cannot believe that you ever convinced me
     To get inside of this boat, it’s my death
     And you’re there just sleeping in spite of it
     So, Wake Up! I’m drowning!
     Wake Up! Why are you still sleeping?
     Wake Up! And find me!
     Wake Up! And take me to the other side!!!

And with just one word, these killer waves subside.
And faith seems so absurd, yet my doubting heart
confides
And I can finally see, the Other Side
You are taking me, to the Other Side

*****************
“Drive”

Just drive, just drive.  Don’t worry.
The center line becoming blurry.
Just drive, just drive. Don’t worry.
The center line.

Just stay alive
Long enough to feel the wind pound
pounding at you.
Just stay alive long enough to
Feel the wind pound.
Huff, puff and blow your house.
(Chorus)
The pressure’s building up again
     There’s voices in the wind
     Driving these demons away.
     With four wheels on the ground again,
     My will can make them spin        
     Like all of those times that I’ve prayed        
     While driving just to stay alive…I’m alive. So alive.

Just breath, just breath –
In, out, again repeat
Though it’s not easy.
Just breath, just breath –
In, out again repeat
Huff, puff and blow your house down.
     
     (Repeat Chorus)
     
(Bridge: voices spinning around)

     Am I alive?  Yes I’m alive!

********************
“The Great Unknown”

It’s kind of hard to tell what I’m feeling  
in fact I’m scared as hell.
Ever since those words, my head’s been reeling,
But you’re the only thing that’s real.

I’d forgotten what it was to be deciding
And so I made no choice at all
But underneath this fear my love’s been hiding
I decided to take the fall, into

The Great Unknown – where I abandon my alone.
I let go of control.  Into this sea I am thrown, I am
thrown.

There’s a thousand things that spin in this abyss -
A thousand ways to go.
There’s a million more I thought I might miss.
But one I did not know…it was
     
The Great Unknown – where our lives are not our
own.
We let go of the reigns and plunge into our way.  This
is our way.

And there’s a pain in giving most of what you have
and a meloncholy wall.
But the joy will only come to you at last
when you decide to give it all, into

The Great Unknown – and yet you feel like this is
home.
But I’ve never seen this place, only it’s fleeting trace
that led me into the Great Unknown…..


********************
“The Track”

If a man of science and a man of faith
were to meet on a green, green field and have a race,
science would lunge forward with a frightening pace
but faith would just sit right down right in his place.
If there was a race.

Science would not tire – he would run just fine.
But he would find faith sitting there
Already waiting for him on the finish line.

Chorus:
If the track is round, I would hear the sound of the
starting gun.
I would sit right down and finish right where I’d begun.
But if the track is straight, and what if I just wait, and I’
m left behind?
What would I miss, what would I find
waiting at the finish line?
But I don’t know what track I’m on.

If a man of despair and a man of hope
Were to meet at a party and give a toast,
Despair would drink for today for tomorrow we die,
And Hope would drink for tomorrow, for today is just a
big old lie.

Chorus:
If I drink today, could I still taste it tomorrow?
And if I wait til tomorrow, could I still swallow?
If I drink til when the now is then, the drink might sour.
What will be left in my cup
When I face that final hour?
But I don’t know what track I’m on.
I don’t know what track I’m on.

So if a man of the senses and a man of the heart
Were to be blindfolded and left in the dark
Sense would inch forward, he’d take a step and wait,
But the heart is use to the dark and walks by faith.

Chorus:
If I use my faith, will I find the door in this dark room?
And if I use my sense and try on my own, will I just
stumble once more?
What if I close my eyes and wait for the light to be
turned on?
What will I miss, what is the more
On the other side of the door?
I gotta find the track I’m on.


**********************
“Bullet Train”

A bullet train from Tokyo gets you anyplace in an hour.
And I don’t need to use my brain to show that I’ve got
power.
Rows and rows of rice and grain, and I wish that I
worked in them.
A pointed hat and cotton clothes
And sun to burn my skin.

A sake high to get me by – the best I’d ever tasted.
Laughing at all those times, when I’ve worried and I’
ve wasted.
Raking leaves and trimming trees – I wish I was the
gardner.
It’s better than this city sleaze
And I think I’d go a little bit farther.

(chorus)
And I said, “Hey, Life, when you’re passing by
We shoud try to get together.”
She says, “Hey fine, if you got the time. I’m the river
And you’re the sailor.  And we’re gonna float on by.
We’ll be just fine.”

The temple row is where I go, burning incense for my
family.
And I don’t have to know who’s who,
Just to know who it is that is me.
A shiny bald head and a tatami bed, and I wish I was
the monk man.
So I wouldn’t have to answer them
when they ask me for my plans.  (hey, what are my
plans?)

(chorus)
And I said, “Hey Life, while you’re passing by,
We should really try to get together.”
She says, “Hey fine, I like the way you rhyme
‘cause I’m the rhythm and you’re the drummer.
And we’ll march on by.  And we’ll be just fine.”

(bridge)
So I think about girls, I think about work.
I think about this world.  I think I’m a jerk.
Whoa but I can laugh, sometimes I can even cry.
Sometimes I feel like crap, but sometimes I can fly.

(chorus)
And I said, “Hey Life, if you pass me by
When the hell are we gonna get together?”
She says, “Hey, that’s right, this is the time.
I’m the Now, don’t be the Never.


*************************
“My Own Two Legs”

When I don’t want to think, I turn on the TV
And slip into the world of fake.
And down down I sink, til I can’t find me,
I can’t find the strength to make
The choice to think and choose, and lay off the booze
Win or lose and go back again.

When I’m tired of feeling, I stare at the ceiling
And smear all my thoughts there like paint
And the cover and control me, and none of them
console me
I think of the person I aint,
Ready to think and deal and get burned by the real
Like a wick on a candle, that I can’t seem to handle
And I do it all again

     And that is Livin but I feel like a chicken
     Sitting on these cold hard eggs
     I’ll break out of my skin and fly from this pen
And stand on my own two legs, my own two legs

There are moments of glory, life’s serendipities
I know they exist cause I’ve had them
But there’s never been a story told without trouble for
the hero bold
You wonder how he’ll overcome them
But he thinks and he knows and he’ll choose
And I want that groove, give it back again

     And that is livin and I’m tired of bitching
     About all the trouble I’ve made
     I’ve been out of my skin so its time I begin
To stand on my own two legs, my own two legs

So when I question my worth, I head into the surf
And challenge the power of the waves
And I fill them with my passion and they teach me a
lesson
That the only way to let go of rage
Is to know where to be and go
And they will guide me to the shore again

And that is livin, where the flow meets the vision
And crashes down illusions you’ve made.
And drowns them within while I get into position to
stand on my own two legs.


*********************
“Unplug”

Unplug, from the fear
And the lines of communication will clear.
‘Cause I feel the disconnect
with the rest of my life.
The line is broken, it is wrecked,
This frayed little wire
Is sparking in the gap between us.

Used to feel the energy flow
From the source to the outlet
Where light was needed I would go,
No matter the outcome.
Now I’m left wondering
Where the fuse is
That burnt out and tired
So I must shut down before I lose it
Gotta get myself rewired
I’m sparking in the gap between us.

Chorus:
So bring in the tools of repair.
Diagnose this break in this chain of despair
‘Cause we’re running like fools, going nowhere
and we’re lost in the gap between  us.

The lights are all out
This house is sleeping
So much harder now that I’m not dreaming
‘Cause the idols keep falling
as I pass through this night
and no one is calling
on this god’s twilight
He’s silent in the gap between us.

Chorus

Light….Light….Find Me!
Light….Light….Find Me!


*******************
“Ego”

What’s that you said?
I’m drowning my ego again.
It’s barely treading water, trying to stay afloat.
But I want you to drown me, keep me from breathing.

You’re inside my head
Tearing down its wall again.
You’re pushing me over the edge and I want to fall
And I want you to push me, right over the edge into
the sea

Chorus:
Drowning in this blue sea, will you dive in after me?
Swimming now underneath this world’s blind eye we’
re free
But our egos much drown in each other’s suffering.

We’re rubbing like flint
Our pride strikes against the stone.
There’s fire from it, and the heat can make us feel
alone.
But I want you to burn me, right down to the real me!

Chorus:
Burning in this fiery sea, would you dive in after me?
Swimming now underneath this world’s cold fire we’
re free
But our egos must burn in each other’s suffering.

O, keep melting away, I keep drowning away, I keep
slipping away, Keep melting away….


******************
“West Coast Life”

People in this West Coast Life
Have a harder time it seems
Facing the seasons of this life, cause they’re
Surrounded only by green.

They’ve never seen the changing of the leaves
Preparing for the void of winter.
It’s all perfect lawns and SUV’s
Trying to push out all discomfort.

(chorus)
They don’t know why
Living things must die, when its
Only flowers all year round.
They don’t understand
This freezing feeling
When its not reflected in the ground.
O yeah, the seasons are part of the plan.

My east coast friend, Brian, has a theory
About the snowfall where he lives, he says,
“If you’ve ever had to suffer and dig yourself from that
snow,
then the weather’s teaching you how to give.”

‘Cause summer and spring are so one-sided
and the people here reflect this belief:
That pain and ugliness have no meaning
Without the balance winter brings.

(chorus)
Green with their money
Green with their envy
A cosmetic glance towards those below.
Keeping their pain at bay
Keeping the world away but
Never knowing the seasons we know
Yeah and we know….the seasons are part of the plan.



*************************
“Better”

There’s nothing like TV
To take away our memory
There’s nothing like a cell phone
So we can never be alone
There’s nothing like a video
To destroy our imagination
There’s nothing like itself anymore, not anymore

There’s nothing like silicon,
Oooh baby, how those turn me on!
There’s nothing like collagen,
To interrupt your skin
There’s nothing like nothing
I find between your ears
There’s no one like themselves anymore, not
anymore

Chorus: ‘Cause we trade in the real, so we don’t have
to feel
We play charades, so we don’t have to deal
We’re always looking for something that’s better.

There’s nothing like a Gallup Poll
To determine what is right
There’s nothing like an honor roll,
When to get to the top you have to fight
There’s nothing like the brand new
And throwing out the old
Like Huxley’s Brave New World
Steel shelter from the cold
There’s nothing like itself anymore, not anymore

Chorus.

There’s nothing like you, sweetheart
Ooh, you’re like clay to me
I can mold you into any part
To fit to my own needs.
There’s nothing like an idol
Yeah, God is on my shelf
There’s nothing like control
That won’t let anything be itself
There’s nothing like itself anymore, not anymore

Chorus


******************
“Knowing You”

I am a priest looking for a pulpit
Living in the crease of a world full of puppets.
But my life has ceased being what it it.
Long years, shuffled down, in this moment.

(chorus)
And the past is swallowed up along this road.
I am saved…by knowing you and being known.

‘Cause I need your love
Like a vein and blood.
Full-on collapse withouth you filling me up.
One word of grace transforms the inside.
The lines of your face, revealing what I hide.

(chorus)
And my grasp is loosening up on fear.
I am saved by loving you and being loved.

Being Loved


*************************
“World Of Gold”

Can you blame a boy with a dream?
Who hasn’t held it up to reality?
Who lives with a hope so simple,
you question your own sense of things.
Can you see the sparkle in his eyes?
In everything he sees, he sees life.
You wonder if he’s got some sort of secret, or is in
touch with God.

(chorus)
Would you battle back his innocence
with all the ugliness you’ve experienced?
Or does it seem to pass right through
Some sort of filter he has that turns everything to
gold?
In a world full of shit.  In a world full of shit.
Yeah that’s how you’ve experienced it,
though I don’t want to quit.
Gonna find my world of gold.

I was that boy with a dream
that everything he touched was redeemed.
Now I’m not even sure that that exists,
I’m tired of facing the world with clenched fists.
But how long can you mourn a loss
before you pick up the eraser, wipe the slate across?
And start writing once again on a board so empty.
But that’s hard when that’s your history.

(chorus)

And there’s a whole other world on the inside
Of every person and thing and it hides
Silent in the center of the soul.
And its either hot or its cold.
And the world on the outside is what it is.
But its this world on the inside that puts the color in.
So I’m trying to pour some hope on the inside
So I can see Gold….

(finale)
Can you find that boy with a dream?
Diggin down deeper inside of me.
Can you find the gold that hides inside.
Gold that changes the world outside.
Won’t believe that the dream has died
‘cause I can see Gold.


*********************
“Lifeless”

So you say you are lifeless,
You think you’re going crazy
Looking for something to chew.
When I am not like this,
I’m bigger than your “maybe”
Where is your courage to choose?

     “Adam where are you?”
     is the question after the fall for us all.
     Well the answer’s in the question –
     That’s the humor of it all.

So you say you are lifeless,
Think you’re going crazy
You don’t know the half of it, and I do.
And if I could advise you
About you’re going crazy,
My suggestion is that you do.

     Cause in this life this craziness
     Is the solution to the pain that remains
     And the only time we see clearly
     Is after we’ve gone completely insane.

     All I need………..is to go a little crazy.

Cause I was lifeless
And people called me crazy
I went into the emptiness
And found truth
Some call it the Dark Night, Sunyata, or the Void
The only important thing is that you choose.
Some go way to the left, others take it way to the right
The only important thing is that you do….go crazy.


********************
“Teaching Me”

You base your reason on authority
On the people in the know.
They’re preaching their message to the majority
so they don’t have to choose which way to go.

But we always start with a beautiful experience.
And that’s as real as it gets.
So why you gotta go ahead and try to explain it
using someone else’s cold, cold words instead?

(chorus)
So take your words and hold on tight,
I just hope they keep you warm at night.
And when they’ve lulled you fast asleep,
Experience passes by and I’m at her feet
Cause she’s teaching me.  She’s teaching me.

And I use to read books in a library
On all the subjects that I loved.
But compared to experience, they made no sense to
me
‘cause into a box experience always gets shoved.

(chorus)
So take your words and hold on tight,
I hope that soon they keep you up at night.
And when they’ve tortured you so you can’t sleep,
Experience passes by, but stay at her feet,
‘cause she’s teaching me.  She’s teaching me.  

(finale)
Though I’m broken, I’ll claim no lifeline.
With my conscience to guide me,
No excuse for hiding.
She’s teaching me.


(postscript)
After all this time,
Through the loss and the pain,
I hope God knows that I,
I’m still listening.
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